memories. . .

. . .do you ever stop to wonder why you can remember some things in such vivid detail it's as if they are happening again, while other memories, no less important or dear, slip away and fade with time? i'm wondering about that today. . .you see, it was 20 years ago today that my wonderful grandmom Josie passed away. thinking about it can (and does) bring instant tears to my eyes. . .but for the last three hours I have been unable to recall a single memory about that day. until now.

once i sat down to pay written tribute to one of the most important people in my life, I remembered that i was out on a date. . .and i didn't want to go in the house when we got home, I was sure something was wrong. . .my date (a cute boy from vineland named Dave) told me not to be silly, that nothing was wrong. he told me that my grandmom was so happy that i went out on a date with him, that she got out of bed and was dancing around the hospital. . .nothing could be further from the truth.

although perhaps she was dancing - glad for me - only no one could see her joy anymore - only feel it, feel her spirit and love - with them forever. . . now the memories are back. . .

catch you soon -